| Dearest Fengmin,
I don't even write here anymore, but when I did, you frequently lurked, and occasionally left your mark. I called 5 people when I got the text message from your sister, and didn't quite know what to make of it. The entire afternoon, I sat at my desk, just trying to process the reality that didn't quite sink in.
We have a long overdue dinner that never came to pass. Who would have known that we didn't have more time? The last few days got me thinking about so many things.
Min, you were always special, and I'm glad I told you all that whenever we spoke, especially during the times when I was still in Australia. There's a particular a moment that I captured in my mind - like a picture, and remember so vividly. The image of me sitting on the dining table, typing furiously on my notebook, telling you how much I like you in a girly sort of way (and still do), and how much I respected you as an equal, how I thought you were brilliant, and that you shone brighter than all the stars in the skies. How we had established some kind of mutual understanding and regard for each other. How you were always going to be my KTV queen, singing all the Stefanie Sun and Zhang Hui Mei songs with me, and filling up the gaps whenever I ran out of breath or had no idea how to continue with the songs!
I could always be honest with you, and you were always candid about things, which made me appreciate you on so many levels, in so many ways. I hope you remembered my multiple thankfulness every time we ended our conversations online, because I could be genuine with you.
Babe, you're beautiful. Always a gem, always great company. And that's how I will always remember you. You were that girl who was bold in everything she did: in love, in life - how splendid your 26 years unfolded. Y'know, there's this famous quote that goes, "It matters not how a man dies, but how he lives."
You lived, dearest, and lived, indeed, like there's no tomorrow. Even through all your fears and all your doubts. And that courage will always inspire.
This is my loving memory of you always, just because some things last forever.
Love always,
me.
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i'm off the anti-depressants!
WOOOOOT!
all good now.
*beams*
and i think i have many people to thank.
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| HELLO HONG KONG!
28dec-4jan
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